cadillac

2005-09-08T20:04:00.000-07:00

in your eyes, i lost my place
just came back from bangkok yesterday.
lotsa shopping!
reached home and crapped alot with eilis again.(see i wrote your name again!)
hokay i'll stop here.

2005-09-02T20:14:00.000-07:00

i'll be gone tmrw!
well not exactly,i'm going to bangkok
until next thursday.i don't wanna go!
i'll miss my someone
parents are irritating creatures by the way
geesh!
boring week,i think
towned on wednesday,town is fucking boring!
I SAW EILIS!(see i posted your name)
actually i don't know what i did there anyway.
teachars are such a drag!
aight ciao!

2005-08-23T12:51:00.000-07:00

i'm still trying,still trying
tell me i have a chance

cuz she's bittersweet,she knocks me off my feet

2005-08-20T23:21:00.000-07:00

Woke up and I feel like shit
I don't remember last night, I'm getting sick of this
I hit the bottle when I got off stage
And got fucking drunk stupid and went in a rage
I think I mighta got into a fight
Because my knuckles were bloody and I don't feel alright
I hit the bottom and I don't even care
Some say I'm going to hell but I'm already hell

I wanna be free from this ball and chain and
Be free from this life of pain and
Be free from this ball and chain
I wanna be free from you

Now I'm full of guilt and shame
I can't point a finger cause theres no one to blame
So I say I'll never do it again
But when the sun goes down, you are my only friend
I'm thinking I am starting to see
I have become everything I didn't want to be
I'm really getting sick of myself
Cause when I look into the mirror, I see somebody else

2005-08-14T20:57:00.000-07:00

i LOVE shareneeeeeeee!

2005-08-08T22:45:00.000-07:00

towned with kimmy!then towned with maybelle,tiffany,
sinyee and kimberly(sjc).then towned with linsin,pamela.then towned with yile and zaedren.i think they so rock my ass.

2005-08-04T23:06:00.000-07:00

i screw things up.

2005-07-29T20:21:00.000-07:00

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent night
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The Goddess of imaginary light

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
Let me stay where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops, as they're falling, tell a story

If you need to leave the world you live in
Lay your head down and stay awhile
Though you may not remember dreaming
Something waits for you to breathe again

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

2005-07-24T16:33:00.000-07:00

What if nobody likes me
what if I don't succeed
What if I give it all that I've got
and I still don't got what they need
What if I don't get anywhere at all
Will I consider myself a failure
will I be that small

What if she doesn't like me
what if I'm not her type
What if all the girls that ever like me
Are not the kind of girls that I like
What if I meet the right one and screw it up
Will I consider myself a failure
will I give up

I'm gonna keep trying
getting denied just makes me want it more
I'll keep trying and each time push harder than before
I can't live my life always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived

What if they don't like me
what if they think I'm a joke
What if they act nice to my face
But they hate me and I don't even know
What if they end up stabbing me in the back
Will I consider myself a failure or will I fight back

I'm gonna keep trying
getting denied just makes me want it more
I'll keep trying and each time push harder than before
I can't live my life always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived

2005-07-23T15:03:00.000-07:00

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

All, all my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling as you drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And, I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

All, all my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

All my friends are gone, they died
They all screamed, and cried

I never forget never forget i can't get no more....

All, all my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

All, all my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming.

2005-07-16T21:09:00.000-07:00

if only i could turn back time.i want us to be like the past.but it's impossible.is it?

2005-07-14T22:52:00.000-07:00

woah.i'm practically NOT allowed to come online now.but who cares anywayy.nothing to blog at all.oh one thing!krystal and jag think i can dirty dance.wth.haha maybe it's
because i choreographed ALL the steps and krystal forgot to.pooo.

2005-07-08T22:15:00.000-07:00

hockey cdiv!
stc won evergreen 11-0
stc won yuhua 5-0
those are our FIRST two matches of the season.

2005-07-06T00:01:00.000-07:00

if only you know how i still feel for you.

2005-07-04T23:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday had some stupid milkrun.nobody ran la.they should call it milkwalk instead.tmr is the match between stc and evergreen.we must win la i dont care.went into zouk with garett and rahwani yesterday.hoho it was so run-down la.but the music was good.i can't wait for racial harmony day.don't know why also.i'll stop here.

-i haven't gotten over you one bit.give me one more chance?-

2005-07-02T00:14:00.000-07:00

it's been one week since i've last blogged!hohoho...my stupid mama la.dont allow me to use comp during weekdays.everyday study like shit lor.my life is getting screwed.i think that i like someone i'm not supposed to.what am i going to do?haha when the time comes then i'll know.sunday milkrun.so boring la!i dont want to go but i ain't got a choice.i can't wait for hockey c div to start!i'm gonna play hard and stc will get into the finals!just wait and see.hoho.

2005-06-24T20:40:00.000-07:00

best cell outing ever man!met jiarong early at like 8.30am then dad sent us to marine parade.bought groceries then met nicole and headed for east coast beach.when everyone came we started worship session then play games.haha.i chose jiarong for the blind mice!we kept bullying her by throwing water at her.rachel and i had pails!so fun la.then when sharon came we dunked jiarong into the sea!then sharon taught us how to play with the waves.water kept going up my nose!damn pain okay.after all the playing it was lunch time!jiarong woke up at 5am just to cook for us okay.so sweet please.rachel,peishi,nicole and i went cycling!we cycled all the way to some ulu place.haha.cycled back and i reached first!YAY.anyway today was super fun.no more things to update anymore!

2005-06-20T19:05:00.000-07:00

yesterday:had umpiring course.during the 3 hours break i went to tiong park with some of the hockey girls!(hitomi,madeline,marissa,carolyn,charisa,bernetta,jillian,brenda,nicolette,jeslyn)
we took many pictures in the choo choo train!hoho.then played flying fox.bernnetta and carolyn pushed me till i almost flew off.so fun la.
today:overslept till four pm.missed training.sheesh.parents went to hongkong!YAYNESS.

2005-06-17T20:00:00.000-07:00

slackest training of all today.was playing "golf" with sush during hockey...hoho!zoey says that i talked in my sleep last night cos she,jaey and krystal were asking me questions and she said i answered crap.maybe i was sleeping i don't know.oh well.umpiring course tmrw,hope i don't fall asleep.haha.i'm confused.oh nevermind.how i wish someone will play bejeweled or hexic with me on msn now.

2005-06-16T22:50:00.000-07:00

if i told you that i loved you,would it matter at all
if i told you that i missed you,would you catch me if i fall
i lost today,i'm not okay
heartbreak,fake smile,2000miles
away,she is,can't live like this
heartbreak,fake smile,2000miles
way away away from here i'll be

2005-06-14T21:17:00.000-07:00

today was fun fun fun!
went towning with sinyee and tiffany.had to wait for them for SO long.
hoho.we watched mr and mrs smith.it was damn boring!but funny too.
then after that they pang seh me!POO.
went to meet zoey and jaey then went to some restaurant with them.
they bought drinks but i didnt.haha.
i put salt inside zoey's!then jaey put pepper inside zoey's drink.
haha so funny la.i also put salt inside jaey's drink.
i failed in making zoey lose her appetite by saying her drink looked like laosai.
aiyah nvm.took many many neos with jaey and zoey.they are retarded!
that's all for today!

2005-06-13T20:07:00.000-07:00

losing you is like losing half of my life.i guess i did misunderstand you big time.maybe it's because i didnt read the stupid msg properly.will i ever get a chance again i don't think so eh?this world is going crazy already.how despo could she get.goodness..she wasn't like that last time and she had to go after someone in the same class as her ex.this is crazy man..i shan't bother anymore.people who gossip about me better watch your back and i'm talking about *******.BITCH.

2005-06-13T16:31:00.000-07:00

yay tmrw towning with cousin,sinyee,tiffany,fiona and others!i'm like so happy!can't wait to see them in ages.i want to see cousin's mushroom hair!HOHO!and sinyee's hair too!they are the colours of my life!

2005-06-12T17:25:00.000-07:00

PEKCHEK AH!

2005-06-10T23:53:00.000-07:00

YOU ARE COMING BACK TODAY!!!!
YAY!i missed you so much!nothing has changed at all!wo ai ni!

2005-06-09T20:48:00.000-07:00

MEMORIES OF KL
-sleeping in buses
-shopping
-freezing bathroom water
-people falling down everywhere
-getting pissed
-shopping
-getting scolded
-always bathing first or second
-sleeping on the bed and floor
-people complaining that i snore
-cup noodles
-grocery shopping race
-CHOKING TOILET BOWLS
-discman
-visiting rooms
-flushing kim's toilet
-gorrilla actions
-waking up early
-watching c.s.i
-reflections and video sessions
-petronus twin towers!
-laughing at people's hair in the morning
-getting punished
-the dinner at police club
-sultan azlan shah international hockey tournament
-burger burger burger

2005-06-08T21:24:00.000-07:00

yay came back from kl trip!had alot of fun but quite tiring too.got punishments cos some people were late.haha.then on monday kimberly choked the toilet!HAHA.then yesterday i choked the toilet!so funny la.then this morning had match.and 5 also had match.woah.i dont feel like blogging now.bye.